Good things take time; there's a process for a reason. You might have everything you need to be what you want and do what you want, but you need to learn the process of getting there before you get to see the finished product.
I want to see everything. Taste everything, touch everything. But I have to learn to value what I've already seen, tasted, and touched before I can appreciate what's still to come; otherwise it just turns into checking things off lists and forgotten Instagram posts that people who I don't know approve of.
Don't be afraid of the process, even when it's slow, and makes you feel awkward and vulnerable; "Real power is in being vulnerable".
"Even in literature and art, no man who bothers about originality will ever be original: whereas if you simply try to tell the truth (without caring twopence how often it has been told before) you will, nine times out of ten, become original without ever having noticed it."
C. S. Lewis